Soon: Chapter 35: Jae Apologizes More
This is a short one, because we haven’t had quite enough yet of Jae taking the blame for the destruction of her marriage.
It’s three in the morning when Paul and Jae get back to Tiny’s:
Once inside, Jae said, “Paul, I’m so sorry for my part in all this. I hope you can forgive me.”
WHAT DO YOU HAVE TO APOLOGIZE FOR, JAE??? JUST WHAT? WHAT SHOULD YOUR SELF-ABSORBED, SERIALLY-CHEATING HUSBAND FORGIVE YOU FOR???
Oh, how I wish that this was Jae buttering up Paul so that she could entrap him.
Sadly (spoiler alert!), this is not the case.
“I was wrong too. I haven’t been a model husband for years.” [said Paul]
Okay, okay, this is good…so far as it goes. Notice, however, that Paul does not ask Jae for her forgiveness.
And he never will.
Not that it seems to matter to Jae—her Stockholm Syndrome is too powerful:
“I wasn’t a model wife, either. I was obsessed with your fidelity—or lack of it.”
Yeah, he’s been cheating on you with dozens of women for eight years. Can’t imagine why you would be worried about that.
“I didn’t consider the effect of my blindness or my anger on you and the kids.”
Notice how Paul neatly avoids the issue of his serial infidelity. Cool how he acts as though all the problems in the marriage arose because he couldn’t handle a traumatic injury with quite enough sensitivity. And who among us could handle sudden blindness perfectly, right? No one!
So he’s blameless!
Then Paul comes as close as he will in this book to revealing his faith to Jae:
“There’s a huge change I want—need—to explain to you. But I’m not sure I can find the words right now with all that’s going on. It’s a battle zone here.”
This is a pretty funny way of putting it, because from the NPO perspective, things are going damn swimmingly right now. This should really make Jae curious…but it doesn’t:
“As long as it’s not a change in your love for me, Paul, I can wait.”
Oh, don’t worry, Jae. Paul didn’t love you before, and he still doesn’t love you now.
“Trust me, it’s a change that makes me value you more than ever. I promise you that.”
See? He values Jae. Jae is the mother of his children. She is his wife. She is his investment, as Straight so sensitively pointed out back in Chapter 20:
“…you have the same job: to honor her and serve her. Keep it up, and you’ll be amazed at the change you’ll see in her. It’s an investment. You do this because it’s the right thing, not for what you get in return. But you will get what you give.”
Ah, Straight’s words have truly come to pass. After all, he has invested…
He hasn’t invested ANYTHING.
He gallivanted off on his merry way, and Jae came crawling back to him, apologizing and begging forgiveness.
I just don’t even.
Nice to be a RTC man, I guess. Half the work and twice the reward.
Even after all this, Paul is still suspicious of his damn nagging wife.
I know I end many segments like this, but it just keeps being relevant:
He is an asshat.